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my journal. my diary. my thoughts. my ideas. my dreams. my experiences. my fears. my wants. my needs. my desires. my life. me.
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12.30.2001
lmfao. it so figures. heather betrayed me and went to tell kaeli that i was 'totally trying to break her/matt up.' that i was 'obsessed with him' i nearly laughed myself into an early grave. i told heather i 'kinda liked him' and that 'if kaeli or herself like him, i wouldn't think twice about it.' ... oh boy .. christy talked kaeli out of it. heather is mysteriously 'missing,' so she and i will have a heart to heart early tomorrow before i leave. :) and i'm going to talk to kaeli after she gets off the phone w/ matt -- she's supposedly on the phone with him now. oh boy, its funny how these *simple* little crushes and questions become 'love affairs.' i swear, people take everything so fucking seriously these days. and just for the hell of it, i'm going to make heather feel like what she did is HUGE. haha, see how she likes it.
leaving at noon tomorrow for the 'slumber party and rose parade' .. we are stopping by my great-grandma's grave. *sighs* i barely remember her anymore, its hard for me to go to her grave and pretend like i believe in god and jesus and all that. yeah, anyways, time to blast some bush
my horoscope:
Do something physical with your mate. Spend quality time together. The stress that you've both been under has caused disagreements. Put that behind you and work toward a better union.
hahahahaha. some what close, it could be interpretted to fit my situation. argggggggh. damn heather.
ramble.d b.y Annika at 9:52 PM
didn't go to bed till 6 a.m. last night. slept till 3 in the afternoon. went online -- and been online since. how exciting is my life? *cracks up* i will be heading up to Arcadia tomorrow. *sighs* oh well ---
its pich black outside[and only 5:06] .. stopped raining about 10 minutes ago. damn. i'm so very bored, and I can't do anything because my parental's are on this crazy 'must clean out the garage' fest. and i'm in no mood to help out. oh, the bordem is killing me.
ramble.d b.y Annika at 5:10 PM
watched tomb raider -- it was better then i thought it would be. :)
then realized that i wanted to continue one of my 'started' roswell fanfics. so, i brought one of them up -- then realized that i didn't remember what i wanted to happen next, so its probably going to become pathetic. *sighs* oh well.
i'd love just to stay home today[seeing as how it is near one o'clock] and go online all day -- although i highly doubt the parental units would allow -- even though i was gone for 48+ hours. argh. i hate being a 'sheltered' child. hmm. so far there is only one person who knows of this blog. ahaha. i dont know who else to inform of it, seeing as how i shut just about everyone from the 'online community' out. i'll talk about that later today if i get my wish of being 'lazy.' hmm. the links on your right have to do with fanfiction/roswell. you have been warned. *evil grin*
ramble.d b.y Annika at 12:56 AM
12.29.2001
well i'm done formatted the thing. what do you think? the image about is 'brendan fehr' the GOD himself. *smirks* changed the 'team' name too. according to the weather man it isn't supposed to main on new years. damn.
this matt thing has gotten out of hand. i told heather -- she said she was suspious of my 'feelings' towards him. asked kaeli again -- "ya i kinda do...but i dunno" so yeah, i'll get over it. i just wish i knew what he thought of me. *sighs* maybe i'll see him before the end of break.
my brother bought tomb raider on dvd, so i think i'm gonna go watch that and try and forget about this whole matt ordeal. haha, lasted long didn't it? *snorts*
and i think this is something i'm going to do daily -- besides the lyrics/quotes
my horoscope:
You can expect to have problems with your partner if you don't let things pass. Be positive and helpful to avoid discord. Plan how you can improve your relationship in the New Year.
anyone else find that pretty close to what i'm dealing with? damn horoscope.
ramble.d b.y Annika at 9:47 PM
well i have started my blog. 'but fail it does' is in reference to the song 'inflatable' by bush, on their new album 'golden state.' the lyrics go 'but as love that's really love can never fail -- but fail it does.' i am in love with this song and if you don't go download it, i might be forced to hit you.
i got home from christy's today -- we went to the stables early this morning [and got drenched in the rain] and then went home and relaxed and watched episode one. *giggles* ewan is gay. i have to break it to you monica. he is a h-o-m-o-s-e-x-u-a-l. so sorry.
since then, i've been sitting around analyzing things and yeah. i happen to now like this guy 'matt' who is friends with one of my friends. i met him when she brought him along w/ me and christy [and a couple other people] to the 'block' [an outdoor shopping center] last night. he's adorable. and he is louder then i am[who thought it possible.] you should have seen us in the theater -- oh boy. he was so cute. he didn't want to see kate and leopold [my second time!], but i convinced him that 'chick flicks' are in his favor. so we get out and he's all 'that was good..' lol. typical guy. and yeah, i talked to kaeli[the friend] and it turns out 'they are just friends' and so, yeah, i dont know. i think i might just be trying to get over andre. which i do need to do. but still. i want to call him, but i'm kinda too chicken to ask kaeli and tell her and all that. argh.
going to decorate the 'rose parade' floats on the 31st when i go up to my great grandparents house, then spending the night and going up to see them early in the morning. i'm hoping its going to 'rain us out' so i dont have to go. i'd much rather stay here and go w/ christy to the stables and maybe matt. ahah. i'm evil.
i think i'm done now -- i will leave you with these great words 'its a beautiful world -- everyones insane'
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